I’m glad you’re here.
Truly. I actually am genuinely happy that you’re here.
Sometimes people will say that, but then follow it up with something that makes you wish you weren’t actually here.
Like… “Oh I’m glad you’re here. Can you grab the other side of this piano?”
Or… “I’m glad you’re here. There’s dinner in the fridge. The baby needs to be changed. The credit card company needs you to call back and verify a purchase from AdamEve dot com for $199.99. We’ll be talking about that later. Also the dog shit on the carpet. Your mom wants you to call her. And you have to drive the pre-teen to dance practice. I’ve gotta run. I’m late for cardio drumming.”
Yeah. We have to talk about cardio drumming. I’m calling shenanigans on cardio drumming. That seems like the paint-n-pour of exercise. What’s next? Orange Theory Air Guitar? Jazzersize Jazz Jazz Revolution? With extra jazz hands!
So yeah. I’m glad you’re here and not doing one of those asinine time fillers.
This place is about taking time to find joy in the way the universe makes us giggle.
For me, the whole universe makes me giggle. There’s something funny everywhere you go, if you look for it.
It didn’t always used to be that way for me.
Depression is a demon that whispered in my ear that nothing was any good, it was never going to get better. And when you hear that over and over, you start looking for ways out.
At my low point, I knew that I was really only a step or two from doing something drastic. So I took all the meds I had in my house (and at the time, I was on a lot of them) and flushed them down the toilet. I didn’t want them in my house if it got worse. And it did.
If I hadn’t flushed them on January 31 2017, I would have eaten them all on February 1.
One thing I’ve come to realize since that day is that even if you’ve just thought about taking your own life, you have already died. You’ve already seen the darkest parts of the universe. And if you’re still here and reading this, you’re a survivor. I’m a survivor.
It was a long road back though therapy and prayer and meditation and practice. And now I’m living my life like I never have before. I’m so happy to still be here, and I’m glad you’re here with me!
If you or a someone you know is experiencing emotional distress or suicidal crisis, check out the resources below:
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: Call 1-800-273-8255 (Veterans, press 1) for 24/7 free and confidential support for people in distress and suicidal in the US
Crisis Text Line: Text HOME to 741741 for free, 24/7 anonymous crisis support in the US